Friday, August 23, 2019

Don't ask me what I did yesterday

I didn't do much but read. A Game Of Thrones is about 1500 pages so I did a lot of reading. I have read for about 14 hours so far and I'm 30 percent through the book. I have fallen asleep a couple of times with it open so I don't know if that adds to the hours that I have read or not. I'm tired this morning I should have really gone back to sleep but my back and legs were killing me when I got up to go to the bathroom so I decided that it was time to get up. I'm not sure what I'm going to do today read, of course, I am enjoying the book. Otherwise, I'm not too sure. I'm still waiting to hear back about horseback riding next week. I have been looking into walkers and wheelchairs to see what is covered under my plan. I can submit it and see if they will cover them. Well, just a short note, for now, not really too much to say. I'm just having my coffee right now. I don't know what I'm going to do maybe go back to bed and sleep some more once I have my coffee it's just after 5am I was up at a quarter to 5 this morning got my meditation done and next is to read. I'll write later.

Thursday, August 22, 2019

It only rained yesterday for a little bit

The rest of the day was beautiful. I went out with my mother. It was a stressful visit as she wanted to get a dashcam for her car and she couldn't grasp the new technology and was too uncertain how to use it. I asked her why she wanted one but she felt she needed one after the last incident she had with her car and the crazy girl that attached her car. I asked her how many times would she had used it and she said only once. I said why get one then what was the chances of her ever needing it again, so she took it back. I'm tired this morning up to midnight reading last night I'm really getting into A Game Of Thrones it's not a bad book. I think I enjoy the book more then I would the series on TV. That's the way I usually find it that I enjoy the book more than the movie or show. I'm still waiting to hear back from the stables about riding next week I still hope to go on Tuesday if I hear from them. I'm up early this morning again I'm hoping to get some work done around the house today it's supposed to be nice again today, I'm just drinking my coffee I should go back to bed but I really don't feel like it right now though. Well, I guess it's about it, for now, I'll write again later on or tomorrow.

Wednesday, August 21, 2019

It's raining, it's pouring

The old man was sorning but he's up now. Just got back from the store in time. Just having a cup of coffee now and a smoke talking to hubby. It's going to be a nice day to stay home and do nothing but reading and practice guitar. That's my plan for the day. I slept well last night which was nice for a change. Even my crazy dreams were not that crazy for a change. I was up at 4:30 but went back to bed I feel pretty good. Well, just a quick note, for now, I'll write later on.

Tuesday, August 20, 2019

Reading A Game Of Thrones

I'm enjoying it. We don't get it here in Canada on Netflix that is what we watch as I don't have cable or regular TV. I do more reading then I do watch TV anyway. I came across the books at the library ebooks that is as I only read ebooks from the library and kobo. I'm too cheap. We went out today and hubby got his hair cut it looks good. He's been going to the same barber for I don't know how long. I also heard back from the family doctor and I made an appointment to go and see her next week to get my MRI ordered. I also talked to a friend and we are going horseback riding next week sometime. Just waiting to hear from the stables to find out when a good time is for them. I'm hoping next Tuesday sometime. I also changed the bed and did two loads of laundry, cleaned the bathroom and did up the dishes. I've been busy today. A good day I feel very productive. I still need to find some time to practice a little guitar not today as it's late and my back is sore but tomorrow. It's supposed to rain so it will be good to stay home and relax and read and practice the guitar. I'm going to do some more reading right now and then go to bed I'm tired. Well, I write again tomorrow that's about it for now.

I was looking over an old post from 10 years ago.

Very interesting I can't believe that I have kept this blog since May 2009. It's nice to look back and see how I have progressed. I no longer see a psychiatrist anymore.  We have an understanding that if I need her then I'll call and make an appointment. So far so good. I still take my medication daily and it helps me, I don't think that I can live without it. It's been a long hard journey and it hasn't ended. If you had told me that it would take 12 years to get where I am now I probably wouldn't have made it. I took it one day at a time and even one minute at a time when I had too. I'm on my third husband now and we have been married for 5 years together 10 known each other for 12. He has seen me at my worst and still loves me. It's hard to believe that I have met another soul mate. I wonder how many soul mates can you met in your life. My first husband was a convenience to get me out of a really bad abusive home life. Now I'm independent and strong. Well, stronger then I was. I wouldn't want to do this life over again I tell you once is enough. Well, hubby is up and sitting with me while I blog oblivious to what I'm writing I should really spend some time with him. I'll write again later.

I emailed my family doc last night

I asked for a repeat MRI don't know if I'll get it or not, I can only ask. No one seems to have any interest in my back and what is wrong with it. I'm sore and tired and tired of being sore. Mind you I'm not to bad this morning for a change. I did a lot of walking yesterday which is good for me keeps me moving. I can't remember if I already mentioned this yesterday but he did say that I could get on a horse again if I can get up on one. If there's a will there's a way and I'm determined. It's early this morning I was up at 5am I guess my usual time. I had a pretty good sleep last night I only got up once which was nice. I'm not sure what I'm doing today other than housework and read. I should really practice the guitar I keep saying that and never do. I don't want to lose what I have learned so far.
It's still dark out right now it is darker later in the morning and earlier at night now. I guess what I'm saying is the days are getting shorter. I'm not doing to bad with it this year so far it usually gets me into a depression but I'm working hard at not getting that way. Trying to find things that will keep me busy during the day time and not think about it. Well, hubby is stirring right now probably up for a bathroom break. He's been up early the past few mornings as well. I'm just having my morning coffee and going to do some reading still haven't finished the book yet but I should today only 30% more to read then I'm done. Actually less then that only 21 more pages to go and I'm done, I don't know what I was thinking. Hubby went back to bed it's too early for him in the mornings. Well, that's about it, for now, I'll try and write a little bit later on.

Monday, August 19, 2019

Saw the doctor

Not impressed told me I had the back of a 65 or 70-year-old and I'm 55, not good. I have spinal stenosis caused by osteoarthritis at L4-5. I've done a fair bit of reading on it this evening and if left untreated, I can have nerve damage leading to increased weakness and pain. I emailed my family Doctor and have asked for a repeat MRI. I'll have to wait and see what they say.

Off to the neurologist today about my back

I can't believe that another week has gone by it's crazy. I had a great sleep last night and now I sore I didn't move much in the night so that doesn't help. I'm not really tired this morning but I probably should have stayed in bed. I had strange dreams again last night very strange, have no idea where they came from. I didn't finish my book yesterday so I best do it today. I have quite a bit of reading to do to finish it. My feet feel swollen this morning. Not in good shape physically. Well, just a quick note today Mikey the turtle is kicking up a fuss he did that yesterday morning when I got up. I'll write later.

Sunday, August 18, 2019

Well not to much going on

I didn't do much yesterday but get my hair cut. I did travel on the city bus and that's a big deal for me. I'd rather walk to where I want to go but I thought I would try an adventure instead. It wasn't too bad. Many strange people travel the bus though it was a little weird and interesting. I went to bed early last night as I didn't sleep to well the night before so I'm up bright and early this morning. Going to do some reading this morning maybe finish the book I'm reading and start another one. I woke several times in the night last night as my back and legs were killing me. Not sure what else I'm going to do today, tomorrow I see the neurologist see what he says about my back I don't know how he can make any new suggestions as they haven't done another MRI of my back and I know it is worse then it was before. I'm not only having left leg sciatica but right leg now which wasn't as bad. Oh well, I guess I'm going to have to live with it. I just don't want to end up in a wheelchair. I did see my mum and sister yesterday for a short period of time and that was plenty enough for me. They were going to take me out for coffee but they were both in a mood not feeling well and neither was I so I didn't get in the car with them and let them go off on their own but I did run into them again at the mall what's the chances of that. My mother wanted me to vacuum out her car yesterday after I told her that my back was bad and then got upset that I wouldn't do it. I'll have to take the bus tomorrow or my bike to the doctors I haven't really thought about how I'm going to get there I was going to walk but the way my back is right now I don't think I can. Well, that is enough nonsense for now I'll write again later.

Saturday, August 17, 2019

I'm tired and sore this morning

I had a terrible night's sleep hubby was all over the bed. I did get out to see my granddaughter yesterday but not with my mum. That's a whole other story. My daughter in law came in a picked me up it was wonderful my granddaughter is so cute. I didn't get many pics only one but I did get to hold her all day it was great. That is probably why I'm so sore today but that's ok it was worth it. I loved the snuggle time that I had with her.
Now my mother. Well, Thursday I spent the day with my mum and she was very aggressive with her driving, verbally abusive with the other drives so what happened after she dropped me off didn't surprise me. Through three stories that she has told so far, we have been able to piece together her story we think but we will probably never get to know the full story. Anyway on her way home from dropping me off she got into an altercation with another woman. My mum told me that this other woman she almost hit was crossing the street my mother hooked her horn at her and the woman came over and grabbed through her open window her cane and was threatening to hit her car with it. The police were called and my mother was charged. My sister's story was similar except my mother was read her right's. My nephew story was that mother got out of the car and tried to remove earbuds on this woman and the woman phoned the police and told them that my mother had assaulted her. Then she talked to me again and said that she wasn't charged just read her right's and that the other woman was at fault. So what do you believe my mother has a tendency to lie. I don't know what to believe and this is one of the reasons that I don't really want to have anything to do with her but she is 84 years old now and has no filter at all. Maybe this will slow her down I don't know. As my Rita would say who has passed away now Not my circus, Not my monkeys.
Well, I think I'm going to go back to bed I'm sore and can't take this sitting I need to feel better if I'm going to head into this day somehow.

Friday, August 16, 2019

I'm plan on going out to see my Granddaughter today

I'm back talking to my family again I couldn't live without them I have settled down and I'm not doing as bad. It's amazing what depression can do to you and how it affects me. I close right down when I am depressed and end up hurting myself more than hurting anyone else. My mum is taking me out hubby thinks I'm crazy for taking her to see my granddaughter but she wants to see her great-granddaughter as well. I just hope she doesn't make a scene.
I had a great sleep last night and I'm feeling pretty good this morning. My back feels pretty good this morning. I can't believe we are halfway through the month now where has the time gone. I see the neurologist on Monday about my back and see what he says. I want to ride a horse again so bad I have someone that will go with my a friend down the street so it will be interesting to see what he says. My legs are very restless today and that doesn't help my back at all.
We have the windows open right now and a nice cool breeze just blew in. I'm sitting drinking my coffee feeling pretty good about myself right now. I did my devotional reading this morning so now I'm going to do some music transcription. Working on another song that I want to learn. I haven't been practicing the guitar the past few days I really have to get back at it again. I'm at a standstill not really learning anything new just trying to keep up with what I have learned so far. I need to do a bit of housework this morning before I head out as well. I'll write again later or tomorrow.

Thursday, August 15, 2019

I was up at 5 then back to bed for a hour and a half

Well, I was up doing my devotional reading then went back to bed as I was still tired. Not sure if I feel any better though I'm still tired. I'm not too sure what I'm doing today but I'm sure I will fill my day in somehow. Well, I'm not going to write for long as I'm frustrated with my computer right now it's being a pain in the ass. I didn't have a very good sleep last night kept waking up and having stupid dreams. We are supposed to go to see my granddaughter tomorrow that will be nice my mum wants to take us. Well, I'm going to stop for now I'll write again later I'm sure.

Wednesday, August 14, 2019

I am so sore this morning it's crazy

I don't know what is wrong with me right now but I'm in so much pain it's unbearable. I had to get up to go to the bathroom and I'm so sore can hardly walk my restless legs aren't helping either. I need to concentrate on something else. It's 4:30 in the morning right now and I should be in bed asleep but I can't because of the pain so I decided to get up and have some coffee and write. I'm still tired but yet wide awake if that makes any sense. The change in position seems to be helping a bit. Well, just a short note for now I'll write later I'm sure.

Tuesday, August 13, 2019

Went for a bike ride and did some music transcription

I made it through the day. I'm still tired and could have a nap but I'm not going to. I still want to practice my guitar and read a bit tonight. I'm fighting to stay awake right now. I keep yawning. I was up early this morning and late to bed last night. Well, just a quick note for now I'll write again later on or tomorrow see how I feel.