It's the first day of Fall

Where has the season's gone before long it will be winter but then the days will start getting longer after that which will be good. I'm not looking forward to winter this year, I never do. The fall I love especially when it's like this. The weather has been great it's supposed to rain today on and off. I have my doctors appointment today to see about my back again. I need to get referred to the pain clinic and have an MRI done to see if there is any more damage to my back. It's been so sore the past few days well even longer than that. I need to do something I can't live like this. I can't do much and what I can do is very little. I try my best. Yesterday I spent it mostly in bed trying to rest my back which it did help a bit I'm not as sore today as I usually am or was yesterday. I was only up once in the night last night which was good. I feel rested today. I need to get my act together and get better they have to do something. I don't think it's a case of being tired I think it's a case of being in pain all the time. I just can't take it some days.
I did some reading yesterday which was nice I was able to concentrate a little. I haven't got any guitar practice in for a few days now it's just so hard on my back. I should do a little bit at a time and then maybe I won't lose what I have learned so far. I need to do something with my life other than reading and playing guitar but I'm very limited in what I can do. I haven't felt like writing my novel at all I haven't done that in months now. I was doing an hour and a half of guitar practice a day but it was too stressful on me so I cut it down to half an hour and cleaning every day as well. Now I have a big wash day on Tuesday I need to get back into a routine. Hubby does the lawns and I do the inside of the house. We share the dishes now he does the pots and pans and I do the rest.
It's warm this morning. I'm just sitting having my second coffee and sweating up a storm. Not bad for the 23 of September. I hope it stays this way for a while. The weather has been great this month for us up here. I know others have had terrible weather I guess that is why it's not so bad here as it could be if we were somewhere else. We are really lucky compared to some. So we shouldn't really complain about the winters that we have but we do. I would still love to be in the country rather than the city but it is practical that we live where we are. If only we didn't have hubby's son living with us. We need our own space and so does he. He has destroyed my living room and I want it back. I don't know how to get rid of him. He just won't leave. Any suggestions anyone? I've told him numerous times to get out and he just won't go. I'm starting to charge him rent now he was supposed to be saving up for an apartment but that hasn't worked for him. Something needs to give.
The prices of apartments in town are rediculous 1400 or more for a two-bedroom 1000 for a bachelor it's crazy. Where do they get off raising the prices so high? The building that my mum lives in is asking 1400 she is paying 950 for her's because she has lived there so long 20 years I think. The building is crap as well. They have painted it put new carpets down and it still smells and looks bad. I like where we live we are in a house and pay 1200 plus utilities but that's okay it works out to be about the same as what I would pay if we moved to an apartment. Our only downfall is that we have my hubby's son living with us. I guess we all have our burdens to bear. I think that is the wrong bear to use but it keeps autocorrecting to it oh well. Well, I guess I should stop now and write again later. I enjoy writing here though it gives me piece writing always has. Putting my thoughts out on paper I have journaled for years thirty-seven years actually. Ever since I have lived on my own. I have journaled here in this blog since May 2009 and before that, I had other blogs that I didn't keep or have let go. This one I enjoy a few followers and no comments. I hope it helps someone if not it helps me keep my life straight. This is the longest that I have kept a journal in one place. I threw out me other journals that I had written just this year. I don't know what I would do if this site ever closed down I guess find a new one.
I'm smoking my last cigarette in my package right now. What're the chances of me quitting? How many times have I written that it's my last smoke? It's Monday morning and everyone is going to work now and I don't have too it's great love it. Well, I guess I should do something other than write, read possibly. My doctor's appointment isn't till 2:15 this afternoon it will be interesting to see what she has to say. I don't know if they can do injections in my back to help with the pain I'm not sure but that is why I want the appointment with the pain clinic or a rheumatologist. Something to help me with the pain. I have been taking Voltaren twice a day and it helps I don't know what else to do. I think the pain makes me sweat I should be past the hot flashes by now in my life but I guess you never know. Well, that's about it, for now, I'll write later or tomorrow.