My Daughter in laws baby shower today

I'm going with my mother so it should be interesting. I'm not sure how long I can stay as I'm not very sociable today for some reason. Maybe when I wake up a bit more I'll feel better. I'm not tired right now feeling pretty awake I just don't know what is wrong with me. I'm on my last cigarette and I'm not buying anymore can't afford to. They are so expensive and I need to stop paying out that kind of money. Just having my coffee and thinking of writing in my novel. I haven't been doing very good at practicing the guitar this week kind of at a standstill. My heart really isn't in it at all this week neither is my back it's been very sore. The weather has been crappy this week as well or I would practice outside. Why am I in this funk today? I had a good nights sleep strange dreams again but I'm used to them. I was lost night in Toronto which was a little scary woke up from that one and I can't remember my last dream they are not as memorable since my medication has been cut back, which is good. Sometimes they were setting my mood for the day. Today I think it's just a lack of money that is causing my mood. I'm pinching pennies that we don't use anymore here. They got rid of them a few years back, cost too much to make I guess. Well, I should really get writing in my novel but I don't really feel like doing that. I'm not sure what I want to do right now. I'll stop journaling here and write again later.