I'm up and ready to go

It's a little early yet to go anywhere and I'm not dressed but I'm awake. I didn't sleep too bad last night strange dreams as usual but they weren't too bad. I need to get myself motivated again I'm in a rut. It's difficult to get out of it. It's more my back is hurting and that depresses me and the depression doesn't help the back pain. I should as I always say go back to bed it's only 6 am right now I've been up for 30 minutes and already on my second cup of coffee. I have done my meditational reading this morning and played my chess tactics. So there isn't too much else to do but read and write in my journal. I was camping last night in my dreams why I don't know I have no idea where that came from and why. Every time I woke up I went back to the same dream. I was only up once in the night which was great for a change. I'm not sure what I'm going to do today. I need to relax and take it easy but I get a little tired of that. I did quite a bit of walking yesterday which was good, not good for the back and legs. It was a beautiful day and I guess it's supposed to be that way again today as well. It's hard to believe that it's midway through September right now. Where has the time gone? I'm sleeping a lot lately and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's the pain it exhausts me I don't know. I try and lie down to read and rest my back and I end up going to sleep. I did get 18 minutes of guitar practice in yesterday I need to do some more today as well. I haven't been playing as much because of my back but I do try and get a bit in as much as I can.
I really need to do some reading I'm still on The Clash of Kings right now the second book of The Game of Thrones. It not that I'm not enjoying it I just can't seem to concentrate on it. That is what I should be doing right now but I'm just so restless I can't. I don't know if I'm going out with my mum today to see my nephew and his family but I think I might pass. Spend some time with my hubby and do what I don't know. My stepson has been seeing this girl (a nice girl) for the past few days. She has been over before but he is so noisy and loud when he talks and they are up all night that doesn't help. He really needs to get his own place and it doesn't look like it's happening. He's supposed to start paying rent to me next month we haven't set a price yet but I think he only thinks 400 dollars. I'd like to charge him more to encourage him to move out and get his own place but in all honesty, I can't. My psychiatrist said that I shouldn't cut him a break that it would encourage him to get his own place. I just don't know how he is to save up and get a place if I'm charging him too much. I'm tired and bored more bored than anything else right now.
I would like to get out of this city. We had a fatal stabbing the other day at 2 in the afternoon. It's hard to believe something like that happening here. They shot and killed the assailant which is crazy. Things like that just don't happen here. We are a small town why us. I feel sorry for the poor family of the victim. He was active in one of our theaters my friend and I saw him in a few plays last year. I guess I live a sheltered life but then I like it that way. The crazy thing is with all the walking I do nothing has ever happened to me thank the Lord for that. What is this world coming to? We need to get out of town but there is just nowhere to go. The rents are so high right now where we are the rent hasn't changed since we moved here. My stepson is so noisy right now I just want him to get his own place.
The garbage trucks are just going by. Why did I write that I don't know? I should stop for now and write later on today. I think my stepson likes to hear his own voice he just won't shut up and his voice carries throughout the house. It's crazy. Every person he sees he ends up in an argument with. He needs to go. He's an ass he really is. He's not a nice person at all he really isn't. I guess she won't be coming over here again. If she does she's crazy. I don't know what she sees in him anyway. These poor girls that think they can change a man it just doesn't work that way. He just doesn't play nice. I don't like him in my house at all. He's seemed to have calmed down a bit but that won't last. Hubby is up going to the bathroom it's too early for him to get up I hope he goes back to bed and gets some more sleep maybe he is. Well, I guess things have settled down, for now, it is quite downstairs I guess I best stay up instead of laying down and reading like I usually do. Well, that's about it, for now, I'll write later.