Up early this morning

My hubby his hogging the bed on me this morning so I decided to get up also having strange stressful dreams. I thought before I got myself all stressed out I would get up and do some writing. I'm tired and could go back to bed and I might do that I'll have to see but for now, I'm up. The coffee is brewing and I'm having a smoke. I had a good sleep otherwise last night I'm just going to take my time and do a bit of writing and read for a bit. Not much else I can really do. I dreamt about my step-sister well she wasn't really a step sister she was my mum's boyfriend's daughter. We had a strange childhood and I'm not sure that I really want to get into that this morning. We, I'm not going to explain it this morning. I haven't seen her since I was 16 a long time ago. I dream about them every once and a while. He had two boys and two girls we were very close as we were put in a close strange situation. Okay, when my mum kicked my dad out she was seeing this guy before she did that. She sold the house gave him the money this boyfriend of her's who was married with children and moved us into their house with his wife and kids while having an affair with him. Basically, she destroyed two families. So you wonder why I have issues and so do they. Anyway, I was dreaming about the oldest daughter that is what got me on this topic. So yes it was a strange dream to have. Try and explain that when you 10 years old to your friends. It was a nightmare, they all drank ugly drunks too. No wonder I tried to run away 3 times and this was the family that I was adopted into when I was young. Life wasn't so bad for the first 10 years it was after that that it was all screwed up. It still doesn't explain why I was five years old when I wanted to die I haven't figured that one out yet. Different things have happened to me over the years to lose trust in the human race many things actually it's a wonder why I have a psychiatrist and have seen her for 12 years to get myself straightened around and I'm fairly straightened around now. I don't want to talk about this anymore. Time for me to stop and do some writing change my thought pattern think of something a little safer than this. I'll try and write later. This is just a little bit of my life that I have lived there is so much more. Welcome to my world.
Just read on Facebook that, "Inner peace begins the moment you chose not to allow another person or event to control your emotions". Got to love it and that was just what I needed to hear.