See my Psychiatrist today

Need an appointment as it's been a month and I don't know about my medication adjustment but I find I'm not as tolerant of people that I once was. I'm down today not sure why but I just don't feel right trying to figure it out and sometimes there is just no figuring. I have been depressed and agitated and I need to get out of this funk that I'm in. I feel like I'm behind the eightball all the time and some days I can do better ignoring it then I am today and that is all I have been doing is ignoring it not dealing with it. I'm sore all the time with my back and legs and that doesn't help. Short of money and my hubby seems to think that blowing 250 dollars drinking on his birthday is fine. Still stuck with his stepson sleeping on the sofa. Just not able to get anywhere fast enough.
I'm very negative today need to change my thoughts around and become positive or ignorant of what is going on around me. Am I ever down today. Time to move on to something and I don't know what and why do I have to move on. It's just not fair. I'm getting tired of this life. I try and make it work for everyone else but me and why? That's what I want to know they don't for me. I like my house and where I live and I guess if they don't then they can leave right. I don't need them and they don't need me but they do. I'm tired mentally. I need to get off this page today or I'm going to bring myself really down. I'll write later and try and be more positive. This is part of my struggle. Looking for Complete Oblivion right now.