I think it would be easier to get rid of the kid

I'm writing down everything that I need to do and it would be so much easier if the kid moved out instead of me. I just can't take it there is so much I would have to change around it's crazy. I don't really want to leave my husband I do love him I just can't take the kid any more. He has destroyed my sofa and the place is a mess with his things. I guess I should also think of a part time job maybe I don't know. I had a melt down this morning and I am just sick and tired. I want to be on my own really that is what I want but I just don't have the energy to do it. I think the first step is changing all my banking around and that's such a chore. It's just not that easy to walk away as I'd like it to be. Well that's about it for now. I don't know.