What is going on in this world of ours

I try and keep up on the news but I find it far to depressing. Why can't people just worry about themselves and living a good life. Why do we have to have cancer a few people that are close have cancer. One girl is making her funeral arrangements. Mine are very simple cremation and party at the house pot luck style. Few drinks few smokes nothing fancy. I think I'll have my ashes spread some where lake Ontario some where easy spent a lot of time at the water front when I'm depressed. Or just kept on the mantel I don't know. I know if I go before my husband it will devastate him same goes for me. I'm trying the vapor cigarette again we will see how it works. Only a couple more days here and I'm off for a week looking forward to it. I should make an appointment with my psychiatrist haven't seen her for a few months. Not even sure I have told her I'm going to be a grandma. See the family doctor on friday see how things are going. I'm tired all the time but I think I'm depressed more so then usual. Can't seem to get out of this funk that I'm in. We still have my husband's son here with us and he is doing pretty good he got himself a job and has been working he bought groceries for the house which was good of him. I've lived on no money this week and that's pretty depressing. My son was to pay me some money that he owes me which didn't happen this friday supposedly we will see. It has been this friday for the past few weeks now. Well i should get myself ready for work I'll write later.