Tired this morning

Didn't sleep to go last night. Went to bed around 11 then woke again at 1:30 tossed and turned all night. Could go back to bed now. Sitting here half asleep. I hope it's steady at work today. Had strange dreams last night I think that was why I was so restless. Well I don't feel up to writing right now I'll try and write later.
Wish I could practice the guitar right now but I don't want to wake my honey. Just sitting here now having my last coffee before I go to work. Feel a little more awake right now which is good. Got my lunch ready last night leftover ham and potatoes can't wait. Neither of my boys called me this weekend. I don't know I always call them thought I would wait and see if they would call me. I'm not sure about family I guess they are not happy that I'm happy and have found someone that totally understands me. I can talk to him about anything that crosses my mind he doesn't freak out when I need someone to talk to about my suicidal thoughts he has them too. I remember talking to my psychiatrist about it asking if we were ok for each other and she said that she would let me know if it wasn't ok. So I guess we are ok together. I've never been able to be this open with someone in my whole life. That was why I decided that I would write a blog to let people know that's it's ok to talk about it. Sometimes you just need someone to listen and to be able to say whatever you're thinking out loud. It's ok to have a psychiatrist it doesn't mean your weak it means your will to work on your issues with someone. I guess I best stop for the moment and write later I need to finish getting ready for work.