Tired all the time.

It doesn't seem to matter when it is but I'm tired all the time anymore. My good days are few and far between. I feel as if I'm just going through the motions I need some time off. One of the girls up front wants to get trained in the back so I can have time off. My mood is down had weird dreams again last night. I find they really affect my mood. I know I've said it before but it's ture. I don't know. On the bright side it's still mild out which is nice. I seem to write the same thing every day. I did get a cute video of my grandson last night. He was laughing at his father as he made silly noises. He such a little sweet heart. I just love him to bits. I don't know why depression is so debilitating but it is. It just drains you of all your energy. Takes the pleasure out of everything. I really have to try and think positive. Change my way of thinking right now. Get out of this hole that I'm digging for myself and I'm medicated could you imagine the shape I'd be in if I wasn't.  Positive thoughts. I have to keep trying. That is why I have picked up my guitar again and started working on Christmas songs. That cheers me up. Well I guess I should stop for now. It's a hard struggle but I'll do my best to keep on going.