Back writing again.

I have started back writing again. I have a complete novel done but I'm still doing rewrites on it. It's amazing all the little mistakes that I have made and I don't have enough confidence to send it away any where. I enjoy writing but whether I can tell a story that is interesting enough for other people to read I don't know. I have been pretty good the past month which is surprising with the Christmas holidays. I think that it helps that I'm in a house now not an apartment and I'm with someone that loves me for who I am. Life is pretty good right now and I hope that it stays this way. I don't know if it is good to be that dependent on a person for your happiness or not but we help each other through our depression. I still rely on drugs to help me through the day but if it is what I have to do then that is what needs to be done. Well just a short note for today. I'm trying to write a little more frequently to see if I can get my thoughts out some where other then letting them stay in my head. I had a spell last night where my mind was going back to the past where it shouldn't be. It went back as far to where I was 16 and ran away from home. I don't know why we went there but I did. I hitch hiked my first and last time I did that. It's amazing the things that happen to us how they shape our lives and make us into the people that we are. I guess some things are best left not shared. It took me till now that I was able to share it with my psychiatrist and then tell my mother what had happened. I don't think that I need to go into details here. But it is something that I have carried all my life. Well I was going to write a short note I guess not. Enough for now. I don't know why I went there again. Oh well. Till tomorrow.