I don't know what I'm thinking right now.

I did a lot of firsts this weekend and I'm not sure why I did. But I think that I was looking for an escape I found it. One thing I almost did was drink but at least I had enough common sense about me not to do that. But I do question the other things that I did. Certainly nothing that I can tell my psychiatrist right now maybe later but not tomorrow. I did escape for the weekend and it was great but my pills can do just the same. I should really go to bed I don't know why I'm writing but I need to I wish I had enough nerve to write about what I did but I don't. Well I guess I should really go to bed and read a bit and try and get some sleep I didn't sleep well last night but maybe I will tonight.